Unlocking the deepest part of the heart....

It's the moment of realization that hit both of us (more so for him) last night. He was on the long drive home that is 1900+ km away from where I am right now and he called to tell me that how hard it was for him to be apart from me and that he needed me with him while he strives to make it big in the things that he once and still wanted so badly.

About a year back from today, I remembered him convincing me how he wanted to go back to Burma to try out a new business while I was resistant to the idea of staying apart and I kept saying no to this idea of him. He was pretty disappointed with my lack of understanding towards what he wanted to do for us and for our family not realizing that staying apart is going to be this tough.

After many discussions, some heated some what-ifs, I finally agreed to take on this challenge. A challenge that is not only for him who's going away but also for me who need to stay strong and be the role player in the stable income for the household for what looks like at least a couple of years. Then in Aug this year, I helped him book a 2 wk trip back home for him to research, understand the current market condition and basically to find out if what he wanted to do is feasible and profitable back there.

He finally left for the 2 wks trip on 1 oct and all I've left with me was his photos and his belongings during the stay in Singapore, bed feels so empty and too big for me alone, his wardrobe left unopened, his toothbrush left unused and his voice his physical existence are all memories (except the times we get to talk on the phone or video chat on skype). I missed him very very much. Especially when I'm not occupied with my work or busy at the yoga class. And I know he misses me too but knowing he has got a bunch of friends who are going to occupy him during his stay, I thought he wouldn't miss me as much as I did.

But I was wrong. He missed me a lot! Like a lot! I could hear it in his voice, I could witness it in his grin when he saw me on the screen, I could feel it from the way he opened up to me about his feeling and how much he needed me beside him. It was such honest and dear thing for him to let me know. He usually isnt very good with expressing his feelings and showing his fondness. But he touched my heart so very deeply that I immediately wanted to forget every problem we may have faced and promise him that, come what may, I will be with him for ever!

How I wish life was as easy as abc. Choices in life are tough. The consequences to the choices made are tougher to sort out. When one problem is solved, the other arose. How will we ever keep up with all the problems so we could breeze through the rest of our lives?

If only wishes really could come true.......

Our Nest In The Making Part III

It's a day shy of a month into the renovation. Although it's considered to be a slow renovation work since it would take 2 months for this major overhaul, I'm quite pleased with the progress so far. On top of what was done previously,

- The timbre flooring has been laid in the living room and the 3 bedrooms.
- The cabinets and the Kitchen as well as the 2 common rooms have been installed.
- The plastering works are in progress for the whole house

What's left now is for us to decide if we want to keep the existing window grilles. If so, decide what colour to be painted it with.

Can't wait for my ID to be back in SG whoes patience and responsiveness are very much appreciated while he was out of town for a week. The backup contact (his business partner) wasn't very much dependable.

Anyways, here's the nest at a glance.