The day you left me..

While you are away..

Do you know that I'm barely hanging on,.?

Not a night went without me thinking ' How could you? '.. ' Why me? '...' What have I done to deserve this?..'..

Obviously and unfortunately, I do not have answer to any of these.

The bed was too big, too cold.. and the house, too quiet.

I hated coming home to an empty house. I miss being with the family and loved ones, the happy times.. I hated preparing food for one cuz it just make me feel so alone...

I am hungry for love, care and concern and disappointed at how you no longer have any of those to offer..

I wish you remembered I have married you for love, loyalty, fulfilling life with a happy family and travel around the world with you when we reach our retirement age...

I wish you didn't forget the dreams we have had together.. I hope we didn't let go of each other's hand this easily..

I wish we don't treat each other like strangers and feel weird even to be talking to each other.

I wish we were more loving, gave each other more hugs and kisses and spend more cuddle time..

I wish we comfort each other during our most vulnerable state of mind and be there for each other..

I wish you have not changed.. into this new person that I no longer able to understand.