Holding On

Sorry I'm losing faith in LOVE. Not the LOVE on its own which is pure, free of expectation and unconditional. But the LOVE between the 2 people who are not blood related. 

I know my posts nowadays are so depressing. But it also accurately describes my day to day life right now. 

The only consolation is that I could stay occupied with work, study and friends. So that I can keep my mind off thinking. I try to be busy just so that I don't allow myself to be thinking. 

But night times are difficult. I can't study at night. Too tried for it. I go to bed early cuz I usually have early morning - I don't like the mad rush before work. I want my calm, peaceful mornings. So that's the time when I'm in bed, before falling asleep, feeling sad, cold and alone. 

Today it just made me wonder. The two hands that held each other pre, during and post wedding, will it ever last holding on to each other until the end of time? Regardless of how good or bad the life situation might be, if there is a little kindness for one another, well, it would be possible. But it's also very likely that - like everything else in life - our mind and heart are capable of change.

May be that's the time we let go. 

Life is tough. It might test you in ways you could never have imagined. It will be easy to let go rather than to hang on weathering through challenges. It might just take one chance to let go cuz in most of the times, it is the easier way out. Which is also why holding on to each other and not letting the other to get away is so much more important and definitely so much harder.

But at the end of the day, when you know the test is over, you still have each other to lean on for the rest of your life and find solace in one another. Because when we get really old, and when we realize money is not all that matters, we will know comfort is the single most important thing in life and that comfort can only come from someone who loves you.

So, remember, don't let the loved one go.